Reflecting on 2018

Another year has gone by and to properly bid goodbye, I like to reflect on how it went. Despite it being my worst year so far, there's no denying that growth and learning were still present in the process. As I reflect on my year, I hope the questions in this blog post will also help you reflect on how yours went. Join me as I look back on how the past year went for me.

Also, just like last year, I got this idea from Amy Lee on Youtube. Feel free to make a similar post as long as you credit her!

Where were you this time last year?

Grad-waiting, yeah, that awkward period where you're done with school and you're just waiting for the commencement exercises. It was a time of doing nothing but passion projects and getting rest from all the academic stress from 2017.

Where are you this time of year?

Trying to figure out my life! What I really want to do, what I want to achieve and all that stuff. There's no denying that I've learned so much. 2019 is the time to manifest all those lessons and just do my best in everything.

If you could describe the year in 3 words, what would they be?

What a mess. That's it. But of course, despite it being a mess, seeds were planted and soon enough, it will grow and bear fruits.

What are you grateful for?

One is how I’m still breathing and alive. Here's to another year of (hopefully) using my time wisely.

Another is how I still have people beside me who really care. Truly grateful for them. I would never have survived this year if it weren't for them. Thank you so much for supporting me and my choices. I still have a lot to learn and I know that I'm one of the most stubborn people you probably know but I hope you will still support me in the things that I do.

And last, realizing how much of a fighter I am. There's so much in me that I never knew I could do. I'm glad that 2018 was the year that made me realize that I am strong and brave.

What goals did you accomplish this year?

First is everything about my blog: moving to Blogger, renewing my domain, being consistent, and creating new content. I'm pretty proud of this blog! I don't usually share some of my posts on my social media accounts, but there were a few of them that I was really proud of.

Another one is being able to express myself through different forms of art. I still managed to create so much in 2018, despite all the stress, heartaches, and overall chaos. I'm happy that I still move to art when I need to release a thought or a feeling.

Being a part of an art exhibit as an artist in my old school. This was my nth exhibit in school (since the architecture track holds annual exhibits about our designs) but it was my first exhibit as an artist. I felt really shy about my work but I'm happy with it.

Last, a big deal for me that I accomplished this year is taking care for myself, health-wise! Both mentally and physically. I've accepted that I need help, especially mentally. I'm glad that I finally took steps for my own betterment and I wish for it to continue this year.

What goals did you not accomplish?

• Getting a job (this is a long story)
• Working out
• Saving money
• Learning how to cook

What brought you the most joy in 2018?

There was the joy of graduating, finally. The joy from being able to create so much this year. The joy from learning more about myself. And the joy from BLACKPINK, to be honest, hahaha!

What habits have you acquired?
Being able to express myself through art, no matter the situation.

Being more patient, understanding, and forgiving when it comes to my feelings and myself in general.

And honestly, some other bad habits that I wish to leave for 2019.

What old habits are you leaving?

One, the unnecessary stalking, hahaha. This was a super unhealthy thing to do. Two, traveling back to the past and reliving the pain, hahaha. And lastly, (too much) online shopping, tsk!!!

What do you want to achieve in 2019?
This year I want to be unapologetically myself. I just want to fully accept myself and be comfortable in my own body and mind. I want people to learn more about the real me.

I also want to find and get a job that makes me feel fulfilled. This was probably one of my biggest struggles last year. I'm too picky (or some other word... if you get me), but at the same time also way too scared.

This is the year for creating even more art. Here's to working more with other people and learning from them. Here's to producing more quality work as well. Art-wise, blog-wise, and work-wise.

Lastly, here's to wishing I control my impulsive shopper tendencies. I wish to save money and spend it on my needs but also reward myself from time to time.

So, yeah. That has been my 2018. How was yours?

I do hope that 2019 will be our year. Here's to embracing the unknown and facing everything that comes our way. The only way is up if 2018 was your lowest. Keep that in mind. Happy new year, everyone!